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intro
02:09
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routinely alone and afraid
my soul left me long ago
pulled from my skin like a pipecleaner through a needle's eye
so here i am searching for something left far behind
i buried the axe but the spade
still sits in my palm
a reminder that everything unearths if given the time
unearths if given the time
i want to be loved like a child
and know who i am when i see my reflection
i'm a coward, a stranger to light
if i could just pull myself upright
i guess what this means is goodbye
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2. |
lavender tide
03:57
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countless hours between us
i count them every morning, half asleep
i'll offer you profundities
in hopes you'll find i'm not quite so naïve as i seem
but how do i find time?
every second is a deadline in my mind
remind me why i try
if i end up getting lost within the tide
i know it'll be the last time
some things never change
and sometimes all it takes is just one day
so carry me away
on warm lavender saltwater waves
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3. |
citrus
03:32
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who do i become when i'm not myself?
is there somewhere i go when i go somewhere else?
there's something in the air and it's crawling down under my skin
at the end of the world don't forget that you're all that i'm letting in
cause everything leads me back to you
a dream of purple-blue
backlight in the loop
cause maybe when we're gone
we're together somewhere
a little less broken, a little less scared
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4. |
desert scene
02:50
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born from the sand with a flower on my shoulder that blooms once a year in the dark
still weary of nightfall, impossibly colder
how loneliness weighs on my heart
you on your journey, come meet me in sunlight
and take from me what you can hold
drink me up quickly, and leave me by midnight
my darling, before you grow cold
oh im still afraid of the dark
and god do i break in your insincere embrace
could you stay until morning?
give me till then, i promise that then-
drawing pictures on the wall
to remind myself despite it all
someone lives here
somebody sleeps here
someone breathes here
someone dreams here
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5. |
daydrunk
04:16
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all that you are, all that you are is all that you took from me
pulled out from my palm, abandoned behind me
warm and ghostly
i am a shell, i am a vessel
i am lonesome cold and empty
can't i keep me to myself?
must i gift-wrap every word i say, and
leave me on your doorstep
in sunrise-colored packaging
bury me gently like you would if you adored me
in time, i'll learn to live between the lines i leave
how to carry on, how to carry on
with broken glass beneath my feet
and i devote my life in all its strange unease
to searching for the sun, searching for the sun
while sleeping soundly bathed in starlight
so when i die i'll make it gentle and expected
a daydrunk afternoon, the sun in my window
unaffected
won't leave behind, won't leave behind a single solitary secret
cause they're so fucking scary that
she left as soon as she truly saw me
and i have learned to question every word i speak
why should i keep on, why should i keep on
with broken glass beneath my feet
goodbye, and sorry, baby, for the mess i leave
(too late, too late, there's no coming back from this
ugly, broken, solitary emptiness
it's my mistake
carry me away and don't forget our time spent
daydrunk and afraid)
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6. |
out there
03:25
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midday, mind astray
faced away but i see you’re shaking
give it up, you’ve done enough
the door is shut, but a window’s open
letting the light through
you only hurt when you think to
turn around, it’s starting now
the lives we’d vowed to end, and how
i wished that we could hide away
but honestly it’s safe to say
i’ve changed since i met you
and i don’t cry like i used to
listen close, the sound of summer is all around us so
let’s go see what’s out there
suspended in space, only air under toe
and i’m not afraid of falling, i’m afraid of letting go
but the sun shines beneath me and calls my name
my heart’s in my throat and my fear is on my sleeve
but your hand is in mine and i really do believe
we’re prepared for whatever is out there
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7. |
outro: pangea
03:25
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my muse left a note on the table
and tracks on the floor
trails of light leading outside the door
my bed where she slept feels like granite
the more she's away
still i sleep 13 hours a day
do i search for and find her
my heart yearns for comfort
did i love her like this before she left?
like there's hardly enough room in my chest
and at night when the light falls
beyond my off-white walls
i find myself learning, again
we all are alone in the end
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